Home sweet home :)

I'm home again after a month. Drive for 4.5 hours wasn't that tiring tho. I planned to come back on Thursday after the last class at 3pm but then there was a replacement on Friday morning. Good la lecturer, you memang baik hati. Wasted a day.

I miss #thelittlezombiecat more than I should lol. My eyes blurred up with tears whenever I watch the video during the time I was about to leave, it laid on the floor and don't wanna to get up, the face sibeh emo than usual. My heart breaks a little </3

BUT THEN when I arrived home this afternoon. I was so excited to see her and can't wait to gift her the things I bought for her. Then end up with , SHE FORGET WHO TF I AM! no la just kidding. Just a little of confuse and face sibeh emo again show up like : " wow hooman, where the hell you've been these days? I damn boring every day and all I can do is only sleep and eat and repeat it all over again. You better feed me and pet me now idiot hooman."

它的眼神有个说不完的千言万语。

After a half an hour of confusion, then she started to stick with me again aww <3
I just bought a damn cute shirt for her. OIYIOR damn suitable for her goddamit. Too cute with it argh . I did buy her gloves too haha ! But she kicked it away. Will buy a red shirt for her during CNY lol.

Then I fall asleep at 6pm++ I think and woke up at 10pm pandai tido-.- Im so dead and it is 1.30am right now lol.
Should make it a movie night tonight. Hmm //

Thunder-rain night

I was about to sleep but it was raining heavily outside. Lightning thunder all way round. Running here and there took these as their playground.

 

Morning class on tomorrow and I hope I'm able to wake up. Just stucked for my Statistic tutorial exercises for hour and I felt so dumb about it. My brain can't work when it touched numbers. But then I feel so proud of my brain. I absorb something and I can do it like finally damn ~

I went to H&M today and it was having SALES right now. Just bought a clothes from there which I failed to buy it last time as it is too expensive for me :( but then finally ! This is faith tho HAHAHAHA  The clothe is thick enough la for me to stay in aircon places for hourssss . 

Argh . My life is full with excitement and surprises 😌😌

Well the rain gets lighter and it's time to call it a day. G'Night world.

Malacca

Finally I chose MMU in Malacca.
After so long of the time, I can't even make a decision for my further study. I was waiting for the government University offer letter BUT end up failure for 2 times I was like. omg is my result that bad? Then lastly I was offered to the UMK. And guess what I not going there. First is because I am really afraid of the flood disaster. I don't want to get through it again in my life *especially during Uni life. I read a news before about students from UMK walking out in line from the University for surviving from flood. Besides of that, I always wanted head to city (but not that city area)lol
So Malacca is definitely one of the best choice tho.

My life is pretty good so far. * It is only the beginning of week 3. I am surviving very well here. Keep meeting friends here and these make me lack of the study mood lol. Still staying in the holidays mode as well. Kok and Jonson just back from here too. I miss them so much. I started counting down for the farewell before they arrived here lol But we did have lots of fun. ARGHHH. Good luck to both of you. Finish up the assignment and get prepare for your examination. *dont ponteng liao please

My room is pretty nice, neat and clean here. I like it so much b'cause I own a very big window here and outside of it is fully green plants, trees and flowers. Fresh and cold air here.
Luckily I didn't fall into homesick that much as I try to spend my free times in the library and tired up myself. So all I wanna do when I enter my room is SLEEP. I'm very proud to say that I'm so hardworking on doing house chore lol haha Mop the freaking floor everyday. I was wondering why my hair fall down like the falling leaves from tree damn if my hair constantly falling down like this for years, surely be botak soon.By the way, the sound insulation of my rent house is SUCK x 100000000. I turn on a video with only 30% volume and I can hear it from downstairs-.- So scary. Can't even touch my guitar, causes earthquake later lol. The only entertaiment of mine ... Why you deprive it from me. So mean .

The worst type of crying

Do we ever think about what's the worst type of crying . 

Yeap the silence cry. The one when everyone is asleep. The one where you feel it in your throat. Then your eyes become blurry from the tears. The one where you just feel like want to scream. The one that you have to hold your breathe and grab your stomach to keep quiet. The one where you can't breathe anymore.

People often do not know the silent tears that we cried.  They think we’re ok when we’re really crying and hurting deeply.

We don’t want to appear weak and thereby be avoided by other peole. We don’t want to add burden or worry to those who love us. We know we would not be understood anyways and crying will only complicate things.

It would have been a lot easier to cry with people who can support you.  It would have been easier if everybody knew what you’re going through.

But when you cry in silence, you’re all alone in your tears.  People may even judge you because they don’t understand that you’re already trying the best you could.

In some instances, you may even have tried to tell people how you’re already hurting, but they don’t believe you or they refuse to believe you.  They may think you’re merely trying to seek attention or that you’re just seeking an excuse from doing something they expected you to do.

The little zombie cat

The second post of mine in 2016. Well done! 👏👏

Half way to the end of the year. Time flies and I feel so glad that I spent my time worthful. I learnt, I travelled, I worked.

After working I was like, YIOR damn I don't feel like wanna study. I'm so lazy to work for it. 

B'cause for the past half year, I worked as a teacher at my primary school. I had lots of fun there. Was confusing that I teached or played with them more HAHAH. I received whole table of presentssss on the Teacher's Day. And I made a wonderful conclusion 

"If you wanna be a temporary teacher, pandai pandai choose the so called season. Choose the Teacher's Day period. Then you will know the love of student."

Then the weather these days really suck. Keep raining. Lighting + thunder + big rain + strong wind = FLOOD

Almost rain every night. Don't flood that early can? It's only September ar DaiLou.

Yesterday I woke up and found a cat hiding at the outside of my house. When I went near I saw her left eyes was blind with a scar on it. Seems like it left when having a fight or got torture by human. 

The eye really looks like the zombie. Coz I  just finish the Train To Busan movie and it scared me so much Coz the movie quite appropriate with our life. Various viruses everywhere. Zika the newest virus spreaded by mosquitoe. So ma fan need beware all the time. Oh Yeah the cat called the little zombie cat.

New Year Post

Okay well first of all happy new year! Welcome to 2016 lol

I forgot I have a date with cousin for having a dinner at Kuantan and this ruined my count down plan. Totally ruin thanks lol By the way, I checked my car before depart then I found there's some problem in the engine coolant. Damn the water flow out when I add water. But it wasn't a big deal so I just ignore it. But will send it to garage soon. Hope it doesn't matter.

Well it was a great night spent with them. And finally have the chance to take a photo with my eldest cousin Biao Ge! He is older than me for 45 years. Well actually he is older than my dad too lol kinda weird but cool.

He is kind and looks abit like a rabbit.

Feeling special when the youngest and eldest of second generation of Tan's family meet up and show up such a big distance in age.

After dinner I tried my very best to rush back to my hometown for friend's gathering count down but still can't make it. I stuck inside the traffic jam and guess what welcoming the new year inside the car with mum. Okay first try have to be proud of it coz not everyone can experience it z 

Kinda disappointed. 

Well good luck in new year everyone. Look forward in the whole new year even it was a mess in the past year. XOXO