The worst type of crying

Do we ever think about what's the worst type of crying . 

Yeap the silence cry. The one when everyone is asleep. The one where you feel it in your throat. Then your eyes become blurry from the tears. The one where you just feel like want to scream. The one that you have to hold your breathe and grab your stomach to keep quiet. The one where you can't breathe anymore.

People often do not know the silent tears that we cried.  They think we’re ok when we’re really crying and hurting deeply.

We don’t want to appear weak and thereby be avoided by other peole. We don’t want to add burden or worry to those who love us. We know we would not be understood anyways and crying will only complicate things.

It would have been a lot easier to cry with people who can support you.  It would have been easier if everybody knew what you’re going through.

But when you cry in silence, you’re all alone in your tears.  People may even judge you because they don’t understand that you’re already trying the best you could.

In some instances, you may even have tried to tell people how you’re already hurting, but they don’t believe you or they refuse to believe you.  They may think you’re merely trying to seek attention or that you’re just seeking an excuse from doing something they expected you to do.

The little zombie cat

The second post of mine in 2016. Well done! 👏👏

Half way to the end of the year. Time flies and I feel so glad that I spent my time worthful. I learnt, I travelled, I worked.

After working I was like, YIOR damn I don't feel like wanna study. I'm so lazy to work for it. 

B'cause for the past half year, I worked as a teacher at my primary school. I had lots of fun there. Was confusing that I teached or played with them more HAHAH. I received whole table of presentssss on the Teacher's Day. And I made a wonderful conclusion 

"If you wanna be a temporary teacher, pandai pandai choose the so called season. Choose the Teacher's Day period. Then you will know the love of student."

Then the weather these days really suck. Keep raining. Lighting + thunder + big rain + strong wind = FLOOD

Almost rain every night. Don't flood that early can? It's only September ar DaiLou.

Yesterday I woke up and found a cat hiding at the outside of my house. When I went near I saw her left eyes was blind with a scar on it. Seems like it left when having a fight or got torture by human. 

The eye really looks like the zombie. Coz I  just finish the Train To Busan movie and it scared me so much Coz the movie quite appropriate with our life. Various viruses everywhere. Zika the newest virus spreaded by mosquitoe. So ma fan need beware all the time. Oh Yeah the cat called the little zombie cat.

New Year Post

Okay well first of all happy new year! Welcome to 2016 lol

I forgot I have a date with cousin for having a dinner at Kuantan and this ruined my count down plan. Totally ruin thanks lol By the way, I checked my car before depart then I found there's some problem in the engine coolant. Damn the water flow out when I add water. But it wasn't a big deal so I just ignore it. But will send it to garage soon. Hope it doesn't matter.

Well it was a great night spent with them. And finally have the chance to take a photo with my eldest cousin Biao Ge! He is older than me for 45 years. Well actually he is older than my dad too lol kinda weird but cool.

He is kind and looks abit like a rabbit.

Feeling special when the youngest and eldest of second generation of Tan's family meet up and show up such a big distance in age.

After dinner I tried my very best to rush back to my hometown for friend's gathering count down but still can't make it. I stuck inside the traffic jam and guess what welcoming the new year inside the car with mum. Okay first try have to be proud of it coz not everyone can experience it z 

Kinda disappointed. 

Well good luck in new year everyone. Look forward in the whole new year even it was a mess in the past year. XOXO