生活的小事

啊哈曾经以为厚开学这件事应该与我无关了? 很可笑 现在却还是必须背着书包低着头往校园走去。开学的第一天我通常都不会去学校我都会有我个人的理由和推理。老师都会花大半天的时间在周会上说一堆有的没的学校大道理然后再来检查这个那个好像真的是一个很有纪律的学校一样 我鄙视你个屁。老师也是人老师也一样会偷懒， 结果很好推测完全正确， 老师没有进班， 我赚到了一天的假期谢谢了。

前一天的晚上我的睡眠是时有史以来最让我痛苦的一次。短短的几个小时我睡睡醒醒反复10多次， 感觉上很闷热，启动了冷气，心仍然被重重的气息压抑着，又不至于难以呼吸的地步，就是很不舒服，头脑似乎要故障的前兆。很烦心，问自己是不是有事挂念着，但脑袋却倒不出什么答案出来，这刻头就开始疼了，看一眼时钟是3点半，静下来，转身，紧抓抱枕，倒头继续睡。

看到一些东西，让我小时候一直很崇拜的人物，瞬间觉得，什么都不是。以前总是意志力 毅力 超强大，什么都是坚持到底， 什么都会做到最好，从零知识变成那领域的专家。为什么人会这样，有时候，你会良心发现，觉得以前一切做的坏事想要好好弥补，那份热诚真的不会持久，路途中遇到太多诱惑，始终还是会把你打回原形。

有时候不是我们不再信任一个人，或者没有心思去对待一个人，而是对方

从 来 都 没 有 想 过 我 们 的 感 受

或许有，就那几秒吧。他们会把自己看得比较重要，所以都会先做些利于自己的事才会站在我们的立场看，或许，或许他们甚至觉得为我们着想是多余的。有没有想过从崇拜信任到心死的那刻 过程要经过多少的跌跌撞撞 把心拾起一片片修补回  再碎掉  是多么地难挨。

江山易改 本性难移。你以为 改 真的那么容易吗。

生活再不开心但还是会有值得一笑的小事，我竟然在三更半夜随便猜别人家wifi 的密码 然后就这样链接上了，那种喜悦哎哟实在无法形容，瞬间觉得自己有个像神一般的头脑。

做人基本禮貌

朋友是朋友不代表你可以做過分的事情。我是個很隨便的人也不代表我傻呆站着你就能爬上我頭來，幹 將心比心。曾經的幫忙曾經的用心不意味着如今的不變質。我不喜歡被佔便宜，我不喜歡我說話你也說話，我不喜歡當眾被批評，我不喜歡被當備胎。這一切一切每個人都懂都明白都了解的感受還需要多說嗎。這絕對不是所謂的大小姐公主怪癖，這是基本禮貌，禮貌懂？要受到怎樣的對待你就得怎樣對待別人。總是說希望有真心朋友希望有人了解希望有人體諒希望有人疼愛，但自己有沒有先做到，有時候這些事情是不能計較誰先付出或誰付出的比較多，你以為這是買賣交易嗎。

再者，如果你以為朋友就是可以很客氣不需要顧及對方感受那你就大錯特錯，人是有感受的，尼瑪你又不是對方的姐姐他管你去死，踩到他一兩次他當你不小心撞他三四次他當你老花，再來的瞎眼就不能再拿“我當他是朋友才這樣我以為他不介意”來當藉口，你以為沒什麼的東西，其實換個立場你就知道他心胸有多寬大。

加上明天也不知道是第幾天沒有去學校上課了，好懊惱啊，看什麼牙醫，什麼預約，還要是上課時間:( *其實心裡明明就很暗爽的臭小孩 明天去關丹照XRay 哦幹，在這之後我一定會寫一篇特長關於可憐牙齒折磨記，但其實應該也不會那麼疼吧*我相信
最近的心情不怎麼美，好像有什麼困擾着似的，開始在紙上亂畫一通，這樣總是能讓打結的腦袋暫時歇一下。

Recently - the end of May and begin of June.

: ” Waste a day again. OVER! ”

YOLOO ~ Feels like gonna cut my hair off! Argh .. My black hair is coming out and it makes me look weird with two mixed colour. Nyahhh! But my mom seems like doesn’t allow me to dye it again, she said it hurts our hair *annoying face -.- AWW !

To be honest, I got sunburn after heading to Awana with those dude  -.- Gosh, my face, my arms, my legs. They all turn into dark choco! Seriously a big different with those parts which didn’t get sunburn niameh -.- I thought I will become whiter after PLKN so I can look prettier in the coming camp HAHAHAHAHAHA but ... why Why WHY you guys prefer few days before camp to swim and got sunburn there !@#$%  

But fortunately I didn't look dark in camera. Oh Yeah! I had a performance at HaiKuoTianKong Xueji's camp with MY guitarist. This is our first cooperation and also performance HAHAHA 

Besides, I just had video call with Carmen. I felt so sorry when she told me that her teammates did nothing for their assignment and she was so worry about it because they have to hand it up on tomorrow. And so I helped her a little bit on her work HAHAHAHA YOU owe me a meal woman! And Stay strong, everything will be fine and you will get a good result if you work hard. Because work hard will pay off, girl ;)

And I really do hope to see you in this month. And give you a big hug and tell you that i miss you!

Almost forget someone. Hmm.. Hey bitch are you there? I don't know whether you read this post or not? You always know that, I'll never get mad on you bro. Even you left me alone in form six damn you girl -.- I'm just scared. Do you remember the day you came to school for the letter of leaving school? YES. You went to library look for me and you hide yourself behind me and whispered out my name, at that moment I was wondering who the heck was playing around or maybe I just got hallucination because I know NO ONE there. And you popped out infront of me and screamed shouted and what I can do was keeping quiet because I know once I speak I will cry. Don't you realized I didn't talk much that day? I can't even look straight into your eyes. 

You asked :"How are you? "

I answered :"I'm fine."

You shocked :"What? Seriously? You are fine without me?? "

I said :"..."

Wow .. Seriously? You asked me this? How could you :( I didn't meet you guys up because I never want to have a farewell with you guys. It is weird tho! So ... Wait for your sembreak okay :) Promise to limteh with you. Stop thinking too much that I hate you or other else. See you soon ;)